The journal

Things we wrote between episodes.

Journal5 min read

Journal 004 — there's an episode we didn't post

He has the recording. He never edited it. He never posted it. And I never followed up. The truth is I am not sure I want that episode to see the light of day.

Adeola
Apr 30, 2026
Journal4 min read

Journal 003 — His God and mine

I think your God might be different from my God and I do not know what to do with that.

Adeola
Apr 23, 2026
Journal1 min read

Journal 004 — I think I've been passive

Paying attention got me here. But attention without surrender is a very polite kind of unbelief.

Rebecca
Apr 16, 2026
Journal3 min read

Journal 002 — Is this just laziness?

I keep saying spirituality matters to me. I keep not making it tangible. Is this just laziness?

Adeola
Apr 02, 2026
Journal1 min read

Journal 003 — this didn't sit right with me

I used to think the flag was rebellion. I'm starting to think it might be discernment. Still figuring out the difference.

Rebecca
Mar 19, 2026
Journal3 min read

Journal 001 — I am the coworker

The pastor was talking about people who don't deserve their blessings. I sat there and realized I was the other one.

Adeola
Mar 08, 2026
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Journal 002 — something about being too open

Openness without discernment is just a door that doesn't close. And in the spiritual sense, that's not faith.

Rebecca
Feb 12, 2026
Journal1 min read

Journal 001 — paying attention to what I let in

I used to think prayer was the first thing I did in the morning. It isn't. Hasn't been for a long time.

Rebecca
Jan 15, 2026